I wish

I wish for time to slow down,
for the hours to stop fleeting by like seconds
and the seconds to stop rushing past like insects on the wind
For the ink in my pen to never stop flowing
for the inspiration to make sense when I transfer it to the page
For the future to stop trying to surprise me
for my plans to make it to the end without some unexpected wrinkle
twisting it to something else
For the results to materialise without so much stress
For the effort to be worthwhile without being overshadowed by doubt
for it all to be less of a gamble when there are kids and family and loved ones involved
For the landscape to keep offering itself to me
and to keep finding hidden locations that I have never seen before
sunsets I will never see again
whispers of waves that will never speak to me the same again
For the flowers and plants in my garden to keep growing
to stay alive even though my fingers are not really that green
For the stability to remain
for the security to never fail again
For the striving, the endeavour to be worth it all in the end
For my mind to stop churning
For my consciousness to stop overworking
For the concern for everything
that doesn’t matter or that I can’t do anything about
no longer keep me awake
For my family to be safe in their beds at night
and their lives in the day
For the turmoil that is still chasing me to finally lose its way
to be left behind me only as a reminder of how bad things can get
For someday to find my peace