Today

Yesterday I was shaking like an addict in withdrawal. Adrenaline heightened senses, overwhelming me with awareness. Each sound burrowing into my soul every noise leaching through gaps in my consciousness I could feel the terror. A proliferation of potential panic pouring upon me, running ravenous into the nerves down my spine The cold shadow of stagnant fear cast over me by the recounting of regurgitated memories. Today I feel the adrenaline oozing through my veins It does not distract me but fuels my enthusiasm, manipulates my motivation. Allows me an escape to the experience of life as it could be. Fear fills me now, in these moments of vivid lucidity. How long can it last? What will I be returned to when this reprieve is relinquished and how long before my next release to sanity?